Monday, November 26, 2012
Suddenly I See
Last week I alluded to the fact that I had to take time away. Time to refresh and focus on me. With each passing day things become clearer and clearer to me.
The things that are important to me.
The things that were harmful or unhealthy in my life.
The people that matter the most and are there for me no matter what.
The truth of the matter is also that some harsh realities were also unveiled. Those people I thought would always would be there, were not. The activities I thought were important, were not. The possessions I thought were important, were not. . .and so on and so forth.
With each new day and new discovery of who I truly am, suddenly I see. Suddenly I see that the most important thing in this life. . .is living it.
I have always been a worrier. I worry what people think of me. I worry what the consiquences of my actions will be. My mind is in constant overdrive.
Now, I'm not saying I am now simply throwing caution to the wind and letting the cards fall as they may. What I'm saying is, I am making a concious effort to LIVE. To take each new day as a chance to grow within myself. To try something I was afraid to try. To not only tell those I care about how much I love them, but to really show them. To stop putting things off until tomorrow when I can make a difference TODAY.
It isn't always easy friends. I look in the mirror sometimes and saying, "I Look Good Today", which used to come so easily, isn't always so anymore. . .but it is getting easier again.
Just remember. We are all going through our own "stuff". We can have the most well put together exterior that you have ever seen, and hiding the greatest hurt one can carry on the inside. I just hope that like me, suddenly you will see all you were meant to be!