Can I be real with you? I mean really REALLY real?
I'm finding myself these days in a bit of a quandary. I feel almost . . . empty.
Don't get me wrong, I am extremely happy. I have the best hubby in the world. I have my health. I have my family, my friends. I have my job. I have this blog. But for whatever reason I still feel empty.
When I say empty I don't mean lonely, unhappy or indifferent. It's more of a feeling of wanting something new. Everything has been statuesque for so long, I want something more. . .but what?
There are a few things on my radar lately. Probably the biggest is considering going back to school (yet again) for my certification as a Christian counselor. I have always felt the calling on my life to help people. That's certainly why I love my current job so much. I feel I am really making a difference in people's lives. Counseling seems to be the perfect fit for me.
The other is singing. I have always loved singing. My family (especially my father and cousin) are very musically talented. Yes I can carry a tune, but I am no Christina Aguilera. I have sung in choirs in high school and college, but never been the solo artist. I have no desire to be some famous musician, but I love how singing makes me feel. I would love to have one on one coaching to better my voice.
I am one of those people that always wants to be growing in every way that I can. I get bored when I am not evolving in some way. It doesn't have to be anything big, but just something, and lately I feel like I am just going through the motions with nothing different.
I look forward to whatever is to come.
I look forward to meeting new challenges head on and triumphing.
I know there is something new, something big out there waiting for me. The possibilities are endless.
Whatever it is, I'm ready and I can't wait to share it with all of you!
You are a very creative person. I, too, feel empty whenever I don't have some "project" happening. In my life, decorating or designing rooms or events keep my creative juices flowing. I think that you have pinpointed your need to find a creative outlet to grow. I;m cheering for you to find that new experience.
ReplyDeleteI think its common to feel "Empty" once in awhile. I think I feel that sometimes
ReplyDeleteJamie, you are such a positive person who had thought us so many things. Keep being positive but it is ok to feel like that once in a while..
ReplyDeleteThanks everyone for your encouragement. Although I may be feeling this way, it is also quite exciting to see what is to come :)
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